I hope you all had a blessed Sunday.
Service is precarious. The more you desire to work for God the more you need to manage ambition. It's not like a career really, in this field if you push too hard with your own strength the less it is about God and His people and the more it ends up being about you. The lesson learnt is to desire to be used at the highest level you were created to be used for His sake. Not yours, He dictates the terms!