As long as we keep holding back, we will never truly experience God presence in our lives. But the more of ourselves we surrender to God, the more of God we will ultimately find in ourselves. God is not attracted to situations that hold their own solution, but to situations which hold no solution without Him.
Make up your mind to rejoice in the Lord! People often ask me; "How do you declare you have the joy of the Lord yet you still cry?" People cry because of the pain of their reality but they rejoice because joy brings harvest! It's okay to cry but cry with hope! For it is written: "Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy. They weep as they go to plant their seed, but they sing as they return with the harvest." - Psalms 126:5-6 NLT